~The Beginning~

OK so in the beginning it was just an idea that i had and Elizabeth and i just happened to talk about our youth group and how we wanted to do something outside of just the regular Sunday and Wednesday atmosphere. I wasn't sure if anyone had thought about a bible study and i brought the idea to Elizabeth and oddly enough she felt the same way i did about it. so last week after Wednesday service i approached Scott and spoke with him about this idea and he got on board with it right away.

So yesterday we had our first small group meeting and to my surprise and Elizabeth's we had more people come to the group than we thought we come. and the day before i remember telling Elizabeth that i was so nervous because having an idea is one thing but fulfilling it is an another thing in itself. Going into this i wasn't sure what to expect and I'm not sure what the future holds for us but i have a good feeling and i hope that this continues and that we all grow spiritually and mentally. I just feel that this is something good and a lot has come from this experience and there is still more to come because it's just the beginning and it begins and ends with him. when we named the first meeting "The Beginning" i thought OK its just a title but Elizabeth pointed out to me today that its beginning of something more and something new.

However the first meeting in my opinion went better than expected we didn't stray from the reason why we were there, and everyone had there input on what was being said and i felt like it would be just Elizabeth and i talking and everyone else just listening, but that wasn't the case William had a lot to say and what surprised me was that he kept his clothes on. lol. I felt like Elizabeth and I weren't talking to ourselves but everyone had something to add to the discussion and that's what kept it going and we ultimately accomplished our goal and had fun doing so. i just feel that we are going in the right direction and i know that that direction is one of opportunity.

i know that I'm not the perfect human and i do have flaws and some of the things that Chan talks about in "crazy Love" are hard to do daily and i admit that i don't do them as i should but i want to be a better person and a better christian and we all have our reasons for why we do things and i know where my heart is, sometimes i wonder but i know that after what i saw and experienced yesterday that I'm in the right place. I'm excited to see where we go with our small groups and to see what god has planned for us because he knew us when were in our mothers womb.

"Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go. When they saw him, they worshiped him: but some doubted. Then Jesus came to them and said " All authority in heaven and on earth ha been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations baptizing them in the name of the father the son and the holy spirit, and teaching them to obey everything i have commanded you. And surely i am with you always, to the very end of the age."

Matthew 28: 16-20

This isn't about one person, it's not about Elizabeth, Scott, Chan or even me. its about something more important than you and i Its all about god. And for me its a time that i realize that i hope that everyone gets something out of this experience and i pray that everyone grows spiritually.

Life's A Voyage That Is Homeward Bound - Herman Melville

The last few weeks of my life have been pretty hectic, but when it comes don to it i know that it is what god has planned for me. Now as i look back on them I'm not sure what god has in store for me and yeah I'm scared of what will come of it but all i can do is have faith, and i need and want to have the faith that i have been lacking for sometime in my life back. I don't know at the end of the day where I'll be but i know what i need to do. These last few weeks of my life have been up and down and i let those things get to me the most and i want to put that behind me and look at all the things that god has done for me. this week he has just blessed me in ways that i never thought possible, but them i wonder what i did to deserve this. I was blessed with a better job and i have the best people in the world in my life and i wouldn't trade them for anything.

Tuesday we had our first small groups meeting and i feel that god s using Elizabeth and i for something bigger, but who knows but him, and i was surprised at how many people came out for that. I even thought about not going because of the day that i had but for some reason i was there i don't understand it at all. The very next day i was woke up to a phone call and the person on the other end wanted me to come in for a job interview. when i left the interview i was sure that i wasn't going to to get the job, but yesterday i found out that i did get the job. It's just amazing how he works.

However though, possibly the best part of my week was after church when Elizabeth and i talked until nine-thirty. It was that conversation that things began to click for me and it made me begin to reevaluate my life and the things that i do and say. Change is always hard but in life it is sometimes necessary to survive. I love Catherine more than she thinks, and it is that love that i need to take a break away form and i know that i would give anything to be with her and i have been her friend for so long and i have always wanted to be more friends with her but right now i feel that it is best that we remain friends and as had as it is for me to say that. I just thought that what Elizabeth said to me was for my own good, because for so long i have let personal relationships get in the way of my relationship with my father, my creator and my master. I don't think it will change or affect my feelings for Catherine and our relationship, but i need to take a step back and look at life through a whole new perspective and get back to a way of life that involves a lot of change and self discovery and a way of living for the lord.

"Commit to the LORD whatever you do, and your plans will succeed."

Proverbs 16:3

Why Oh Why?

These days it is hard to focus on things in life because we live in the society that does not want us to want us to be different but wants us to conform to the standards that everyone seems to follow. but why do we follow these standards. aren't we supposed to be different isn't that what we are taught in school is to be different? it's like Elizabeth said holidays are commercialized and depending on the holiday is what you get to see on the self.

That is why i hate reality shows because it over glorifies people who have no talent and puts them on a world stage to make a fool of themselves and yeah it is entertaining for awhile then it gets annoying like flava- flav had what three shows on finding love until he decided he wanted to be with his baby's momma. honestly this is what makes us move away from family time and move towards polluting our minds with nonsense. The thing it comes down to is ratings and people will do whatever it takes to get them. i honestly don't want to see some thirty year old guy running around a house drunk on MTV because he thinks it's the real world, but in fact the real world is having a job and paying taxes and working for what you plan to achieve in life. I mean how is it that children refuse to learn to spell and pursue a valid education while in school but they can learn to spell from a rap song and say that an education is invalid in the streets because they want to be a rapper, well more than likely they will not be a rapper and the people that put these songs out there are the ones that end up in prison for the crimes that they rap about. doesn't that pollute the minds of children? and isn't that part of the reason why so many prisons are becoming overcrowded?

All you have to do is look around at the society that we live in and you will notice that so many people neglect the values that most uphold. I was at work the other day and a lady came in about twenty years old with a son, when she was leaving she left her son at the front of the store and walked across the street to go to McDonald's leaving her son at out store. and it was about forty five minutes before she came back. what parent leaves there child like that and upon that the police let her take her son home. Now what does it come to when we let people get away with things like that but the second you discipline your child in public you get arrested for being a parent.

All in all what it comes down to is that our society is messed up that is why you see these girls on magazine covers that weigh like 90 pounds and you hear people say that they want to be like them and we accept the fact that golfers can have affairs and people say that it is OK, knowing that it is not OK and it is morally wrong and i get tired of hearing about it and i get tired of hearing about spoiled little brats such as Paris Hilton and Lindsay lohan because they are idiots and don't know the meaning of the word no. i mean for once i would love to turn on a television and not have my brain rotted by useless information, they spend so much talking about celebrities and there flaws knowing that it is not there place to judge others but god's place and yet you hear nothing about INVISIBLE CHILDREN, or that children die everyday because of lack of nourishment. i believe that if we put as much effort as we put in listening to useless music or filling ourselves with useless information into helping others than it would be a better world but only slightly and in time the effort we put forth might affect others around the world in ways we never thought were possible.

What The Hayul?

I never thought I would say this, but for the first time in my life I was happy to be with her. I was actually alive and happy to have her in my arms, but something told me that this feeling wouldn’t last long. I’m not sure why I felt this way but it just was. It was just surreal but in reality it was something more that just happiness to me, it was love. I mean I had been with her for almost a year now and I knew that this was the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.

I left her house about eleven in the morning and I was on my way to work. I arrived there and the police chief was there who just so happened to be my step dad. He told me that I wasn’t going to work today but instead he took me to Christiana’s house from which I had left only about an hour ago from. When we got there I jumped from the car and ran to the front door where I saw the coroner pulling a body from the house. I ran to the body bag that was upon the gurney and unzipped it and I saw the face and fell to my knees crying in torment. It was Christina, my Christina. What the hell happened I asked and then my step dad told me that she had hung herself from the balcony on the third floor. I just didn’t understand it one bit of it the rationality made no sense. Why would she do this to her, to me, to us? In my mind she couldn’t have done this it must have been someone else and of this I was convinced of. Until they showed me the security camera video, and then I knew it was her that she had done this but the one question remained and that was why?

As the day of the funeral approached the eventual reality of her being gone had begun to set in, but I just had refused to accept it thus far. I guess the only thing that would really put things in perspective would be the moment when I don’t see her anymore and that she is buried with all my happiness and joy that had come with loving her. I had my friends surrounding me during all of this when the only person I could blame was me and for that I deserved no sympathy. It was a time for me of self realization that this is the one thing to me that I had lost with no explanation as to why but it happened and I couldn’t change that.

The day of the funeral came and I was morbid but what else can someone in my position feel sorry, angry, upset, happy? I mean I was feeling all of those things but for different reasons but most of all I felt morbid. I’m not sure why I felt this way but I did. As I rose to get up inside of the chapel, my legs felt weak. I struggled to get to the podium to speak of how great Christina was in my mind how much she meant to me. As I reached towards the end of my eulogy, I began to cry, I was crying so hard that my knees gave out from under me and I fell to the floor distraught. After the chapel ceremony we all gathered up and began a procession out of the chapel and towards the line of limo’s and hearse where her body was placed inside. As the door shut it seemed to me that it was a sign of condemnation, not for her but for me that I should have to suffer for all the things that I had done in my life wrong and as punishment I should spend the rest of my life without her in my arms.

As we proceeded towards the cemetery I began to think about all the good times that we had together and I got caught up in the moment of reminiscence, the car in front of my dad slammed on their brakes to avoid hitting the car in front of them but to no avail my dad’s car flew over their’s and landed in front of the hearse which then plowed through the car without having a chance to stop. Without a second thought I jumped from my car and ran to my dad’s car to see if he was ok or what, but it was too late. The impact of the wreck decapitated him and his head landed about fifty feet away on the side of the road. As I ran towards my dad’s car I began to get sick in my stomach at the thought of how I just lost the love of my life Christina and now my dad. I just couldn’t bear the pain anymore the torment and the agony of this just tore me apart from the inside out like a monster was inside of me consuming my soul as I tried to make sense of the events that had just transpired.

After the accident, the police took me to a mental evaluation center to get checked out because of all the things that I had gone through over the last few days. As I walked in to the lobby of the East View Mental Center there was a lady who liked like she was around twenty-three and she said to me that her name was Rachel. Rachel explained to me that I would undergo an evaluation and I might stay over the night for observation. As I walked through the door with what it seemed like was a million locks, I knew that I was truly in hell and I knew that in my mind it was going to be a long night. As I followed Rachel down the long hallway which seemed to never end, we made it to an elevator which she took me to the basement on where I was put into a room with a single metal bench. Once inside the room, the door was closed and the room went dark. Once the light went off I fell to the floor as I struggled to find the metal bench. Before I could find the bench though the lights came on and there was a big black man standing before me. As he walked closer to me I began to feel that this was a bad situation for me to be in but where would I go? As the man moved closer and closer to me I began to panic and break out in a sweat reaching for anything that I could get my hands on to pull me away from this, strange man. I kept sliding backwards on the floor so much that my back was a the wall and I couldn’t move any further back. The man took one final step and leaned forward over me. The man reached into his vest and pulled out a needle and began to wave it in front of me then, he stopped. To my relief the man put it back in his vest and turned around. I began to breathe a sigh of relief and then the man sat on the bench and stared at the wall. For a brief moment there was silence and then a loud bang. I stammered “ He, He killed himself” the only thing that remained was why? The man laid on the floor in front of me with his hand upon the metal bench. The door opened just a crack as I peered through I saw nothing then I saw everything. It was amazing yet scary it was like hell on earth, in the blink of an eye the building burst into flames as I walked towards the end of the hall way.

Then it stopped, it just stopped. I didn’t understand it but it happened. I thought to myself what could be the reason for this happening to me but I didn’t dwell on it to much longer as I reached the outside world I felt free but trapped inside. Inside I still felt remorse because of what I had lost because it meant the world to me and now I had to deal with it and move on and I just don’t want to, I mean If I could bring her back I would. I just wanted to have her in my arms and have her head on my shoulder but I knew it would never happen again. I started walking down the street towards St. John’s Catholic Church to see Father Amos to talk to him about everything that had happened, because I felt if there was a GOD then why was all of this happening to me?

After about thirty minutes of walking I finally reached St. John’s. As I looked up at the cross sitting upon the roof , the gates and doors swung open as if the wind had bomb rushed them. I began to walk forward and as I did the wind began to blow and howl all around me, but it didn’t. I reached the steps and stopped and looked around me to see if anyone was around, I saw no one. I walked up the three steps to the wood doors that had been violently swung open when the wind was in an uproar. I walked trough the doors and a man stepped out from the side and closed the doors so gently I didn’t notice until the final bang and click of the lock. The man walked beside me and began to talk to me about Christina and what I would do if she could come back. I thought to myself for a minute about his question and simply said “ I would give my life to see her again, but she isn’t here.” The man looked at me and than began to pace back and forth beside me and said “ I’ll make you a deal, if you give me your life then she will walk the earth beside you, lay next to you and breath again.” I looked at the man with utter confusion because how can a man bring some one back to life, but I looked at him and gave him my life. Nothing meant more to me than Christina and I knew that the way she died was not the way that she really wanted to leave this hellish place, but the man looked at me and said “ A deal is a Deal.” The man unlocked the door and Christina walked through them and hugged me. My face lit up and I just looked stunned at what had happened, I mean I was holding Christina in my arms. The man looked at me and said “ Now your Life.” I had a million thoughts going trough my head but I made a deal. The man left without telling me his name or how he brought Christina back but at the time I didn’t care because I was happy and I had the love of my life back in my arms and I was smelling her perfume, seeing the glow in her eyes, having her hair pressing upon my shoulder. I was in love with this girl but how long I would have with her, I wasn’t sure of that.

I looked to see where the man went but I didn’t see him anywhere, I picked up Christiana and carried her out of St. John’s and into the street. We walked for about three or four blocks and there he was, the man was standing in the middle of the street. I placed Christina on the ground and walked toward the man. I still had no idea who he was or even how he had brought Christina back to life. The man looked and Christina and then at me, he spoke in a calm voice and said “ are you happy?, I brought her back for you knowing what you would give up for this to happen and so it has happened, but now you are mine and you work for me. I know this may surprise you but my name is Lou.” With the look of bewilderment on my face I said “Lou?” “Lou as in Lucifer?” I asked. He said ‘yes” I supposed that I was going to do his bidding on earth while he contended with hell itself but why me? I understood what I had given up but what was the point of giving it up for someone that I knew that I might not see again or if I refused that at that moment she could be gone from my sight forever and that is something that I wouldn’t let happen again as long as I walked the earth. So I guess it seemed that I had no choice that I would give up my life for that of Christina, the only person that I loved. To it was just all of a sudden that this would change my life and make me smile and cry and love again but it was under circumstances that I just did not understand, I wanted to but I just didn’t know how to make sense of it. I turned to look at Christina to see her one final time before I vanished from her sight. As I turned to see her she looked at me as if she didn’t know who I was because from that moment on I was not of the earth but of the hell that would one day consume and ravage this place of abundance and of plenty but of hatred, and loss. As I watched her walk away from me in the street my heart sank to anger not of her but of me that I had chosen this choice. I stood there and watched the woman that I loved walk away from me because she had no choice but to do it , I knew that there was no way we could ever be together because of this. She turned the corner and vanished from my sight, I just don’t see how I could let her go for a second time. I fell to my knees and buried my head in my hands in dismay, when Lou put his hand on my shoulder and at that moment we were in hell.

When we got there Lou immediately took me under his wing and began to teach me his ways and what he would like to have done. as I looked at Lou I thought of Christina and what life must be like for her as I was no longer there for her. Lou looked at me as if I knew what he wanted but, I didn’t I was unsure of what he wanted or saw in me. I still wasn’t sure of even why he picked me of all people. None the less I continued to do as I was instructed to do, honestly where would I go?

Lou told me that I was going to take over when his reign came to an end as he sensed it would becoming real soon. I didn’t know how to take this I mean how am I supposed to become all that is hated and yet know that the woman I love is a living, breathing, walking, soul? The only bright side was I could walk the earth as I pleased. I longed for it but I didn’t know how this was supposed to happen but I knew that it would. After Lou and I finished talking he told me what I had to do and that was to walk the earth killing people taking lives as I pleased, but only based on the deeds of people.

The next day I knew what that meant for me and that was that I began my reign over the earth as a living breathing walking Grimm reaper if that’s what people wanted to call me. As I began to walk the earth I noticed many things. I saw people getting murdered for no reason what so ever, but It was happening and the only thing I could do is kill people and not be punished for my actions because after all I was immortal.

Forgiveness

I know that there are times in life during which we must decide at what cost do we allow ourselves to be influenced by people that some might consider a negative influence in our lives and then it raises the question what next. How do we decide who stays in our lives and who goes. i know that it is a question that one must ask depending on the circumstances that arise, but the thing is regardless of the impact that they have on you or what they have done. doesn't that bring about a second chance at a renewed friendship? aren't we supposed to forgive those who have wronged us and others? I mean isn't that the right thing to do? then why is it so hard to forgive someone? There are plenty of things that i have done in my life and begged for forgiveness and i have yet to be forgiven and i don't understand it because the same people that i have wronged have wronged me and i have forgiven them.

Mark 11:25
And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.

Is that not a true statement? If we are th children of GOD, then why do we hate? why do we fight? It makes no sense to me.

BITR: Public Nudity.

Ok so i was given the topic of public nudity awhile back and well i finally got around to actually doing in now. so here goes.

Well public nudity is a really hard thing to write about really but it makes sense when you think about why we wear clothes, because honestly would you want to walk in to a restraunt and see some guy sitting there with no shirt on or something or let me make a very clear and vivid picture would you want to see lee with no shirt on or nothing on at all? well i don't thats why im glad that we all wear clothes in public now if you want to be nude in the comfort of your house, hey go for it, but i just don't want to see an 80 year old mans flabbiness.

I know kinda short but please wear clothes. [seriously.][Unless you want to see lee with no shirt on.]

First Week- Senior Year {8/13-15/08}

Ok so well as many of you know, school is back in now. All summer i was essentially looking forward to going back to school, and now that i am i wish i was out.

My schedule is as follows:

A-Day
First Block: 3D Sculpture
Second Block: Coordinated Studies
Third Block: AP English 12
Fourth Block: Co-Op
B-Day
First Block: Government
Second Block: Physics
Third Block: Honors Pre-Cal
Fourth Block: Co-Op

Well i like all of my classes to a point though. I enjoy Sculpture becasue i have it with 3 of my friends so that works out well and there are 10 people in there. Coordinated studies is kinda boring but there are like 10 people in there so im ok with that. now english well i hate the work. Government well that is going to be a trip with coach Chatman, because he scares me. Well Lakin i'm confused about physics and i hate it already. we were in there for the first time on friday and he gave us our books and homework already AHHHHHHHH!!!! Pre-Cal, well i hate it already, we already took a test in there. But i guess we'll have to wait and see how the rest of the year goes i guess. but i might not survive this year.

BITR: Lesbians

Ok so for some reason my topic for this week is well, you guessed it Lesbians.

Well after some research i discoved the word "lesbian" originated in Greece formed for the island of Lesbos.

Enough said on that but my view on "Lesbian" relationships is, quite simple really. If you were to ask a guy if he likes lesbian more than likely he would say "yea" and "it's Hot." well personally for me i have no problem with it really. i know a few people that have chosen to take this path and i also know a few people that as self proclaimed bisexuals. well good for them i guess but i honestly disagree because to me its neither hot and nor do i like it. but well its the society that we live in now.

to me this is a very hard topic to write on and well it is also very controversial, so thanks e-beth.

My opinion and veiws on this are really simple and in a way very hard to sum up.

BITR: Ghosts and Aliens

Ok so the topic for this week is ghosts and aliens.

Well i do have to say that when i was younger that i did believe in both aliens and ghosts. Now days i have strayed from the notion of the existence of aliens. But however i still believe that there are ghosts in our world. Im not sure exactly how i have arrived at this conclusion.

The reason why i believe in the non-existence of aliens is because, well there is no actual given proof. Sure there are pictures, but the thing is how do you know that its not photo shopped or even an airplane.

Now the given for ghosts well if you lived with my sister or even know her, well she is like super obsessed with the existence of ghosts. She watches the Sci-Fi show Ghost Hunters, and has every season on dvd. she has also gone as far as to even try to be a ghost hunter. But sure there is possible evidence of the possible existence of ghosts.

As for me i have really elected to believe that there is a possible existence of ghosts, but i choose not officially say that ghosts exist. but its possible.

Growing Up!

Ok. well this summer has been interesting for me to say the least. its been up and down forward and backwards. to put it in simple terms it has confused the mess out of me really. But all of the confusion has really made me want to just sit down and think things over in my life and well it makes no sense to me anymore.

I mean over the last few years i have changed so much i'm really not sure who i am anymore honestly. I know who i can be but im just not the same person i once was. I know that people change but seriously i have really changed alot and in part its due to the people that i surrounded myself with but its also my fault as well. But sure the media also has had an influence in this as well. Because today we live in a society that tells us what is the golden standard of looks like its not ok to weigh more than say 110lbs. sorry but people are not perfect, but society idolizes those who have fame and fortune and looks down on those who don't have such a glamorous lifestyle and well i reralize that now.

But over the course of the summer i have realized who my friends are and well how much i mean to them. I have also grown up alot, sure i still act crazy at times but well its good to be insane everyonce in a while though. Thats what makes life so wondefully interesting and keeps us in check at times.

This summer i have cut alot of people out of my life and put people in it, sure i question those decisions, but well i'm ultimately doing it for me and no one else. I know that there will be people that may not like me because of all of this but well they'll get over it eventually.

I'm just tired of people seeing me the way that want to see me and not even get a chance to know me. But if you get to know me well you'll understand a little more about me. Because yea at times i can be judgemental, but i honestly try not to be that way. Sure im not the best in the world, but im doing the best i can with what i have and sometimes i wish i did alot more. I have my issues and i'm working on them.

But this summer is going to be one that i remember for a very long time because of what i have learned and what i am trying to acomplish in my life. I'm trying to let go of the past, although its not always that simple its something that i have to atleast try to do and just live in the present and start planning for whatever the future yields for me. And there are some people that i want to be there for me in the future and be with me in the future but the only thing i can do about that is really pray. I know that the road in life is not always a smooth one but sometimes i wish it was a little less bumpy. because somethings i could really deal without. But its life though.

But there is one person this summer that has really turned my life upside down and well hurt me and well i forgive that person for all that and want to move forward. But like i said who knows what the future holds for us.

I have also learned this summer that you can never really and truly say never because things change. Although we may not no the outcome of it, the only thing we can do is hope and pray that it be a positive outcome for the better. But i have messed up a few things this summer that i wish i hadn't messed up but i did learn in some way from them. It may not seem like i learned anything at all, but truth be told i did and that is whats prompting all of these changes in my life.

But the two main lessons i learned this summer is that you should give it all up to God and let him have it all and the second is "never regret something that once made you smile" (lindsey Baker) and i don't regret anything that made me smile i only reflect on it and embrace it for the greater well being of myself and and its those memories that i will always cherish because they mean the most to me.

But i have realized alot and learned alot lost a few people close to me and let people go and let people in and had someone that meant alot to me walk away. I hope that that person walks back becasue it would mean alot to me, but its up to them. in a way that person is walking back in and thats the way i want it. but thats what i learned this summer and i will remeber everything that has happened and that will happen in summer 2008.

My Peeps.

Catherine: Ok so there is much to say about this one crazy cat. lol but once you get to know her she is the shizz. Yea some disagree with her musical preferences but i actually think that its very "unique" and we have been through some stuff and we manage to come out of it all un scathed and thats whats really up and i'm really glad to call her one of my best friends. And all the fun times that we have had mean alot and i hope that they continue i.e. Leaforia. lol. But you really can't help to love her and she is the most unusual person that i know. But i will always remember Florida, and Mississippi and sadly enough Six Flags and the Braves- Reds game last summer but all in all Catherine is one of the people i trust my life with and tell everything to and i would have it no other way and she hates me for one little thing that i did but that was never a major thing to worry about so sorry bout busting your lip, and the carpet burn. but you rock. out loud might i add. all in all though i love this girl and its more than i think that she knows but maybe one day.

Jaulon: Ok so me and jaulon haven't been cool for like years upon years upon years. Recently we have become friends and if not even better friends and i talk to him about alot of stuff and get his take on it and if it comes down to it i get his mom's take on stuff because she is just as awesome as he is. Yea he has been through alot and i haven't been there for him through all of that but im here now and i got dis nigaa back. dats whats up.

John: What can i really say about this guy honestly. he's one of my best friends and yea i have lots of them but we have been cool ever since our days of playing football. but in the end i want him to remember its all about the D-Line.

Sierra: Well what is ther to say about this little white girl. lol jk. seriously what is there to say she's always there when i need someone to talk to or if i have a problem and just need some advice on a particular situation and i can always say that she can talk me out of anything stupid that i might do and yea she may not be the smartest sometimes she sure is one of the best and im glad to call her a friend.

Danielle: Danielle, Danielle, Danielle. Well where to even start thats a though one. Well first of all i would like to say that i never made her list of annoyances and that saying something about me i guess. but we can agree to disagree but we agree ont he fact that auburn is better than bama any day. and i feel her pain when it comes to younger siblings but its all good. I'm glad to know her and i would not trade anything for that. And no redheads do not rule the world. lol

Brittany: This girl is my self proclaimed grandma. she knows whats best for me and she doesn't hesitate to give it to me straight. I may not listen to her at the time but in the end shes worth it and like sierra i can always go to her for advice and she knows what it is most of the time. and im always right here if she evers needs someone to talk to or just have a good time this is my lil anime obsessed grandma. word of advice though don't make her mad. she'll kick your booty.

Krystal: Well this is my little filipino and also one third of the three amigos. But i can always count on her to get out of mrs. McKean's class with me and go on epic adventures around the school and go to mr. lakin's with me.

Jasmine W: Ok so this person is the other one third of the three amigos. like with Krystal she helps us get out of classes just because we just don't want to be there and i would have it no other way good times with lakin and good ole' Angela.

Jasmine M: Well this person is my little artist (on anime) she can be an intersting character but well you never get used to her honestly, because i still haven't completly. However she is better than me on the drums and in math but other than that i can take her. But its good times like in Shypill's class that was the most fun i have ever had at making a teacher so close to wanting to quit, but she's not so bad after all.

Lee: Well there is way too much to say about this guy. well for starters this is the only person that i know that will shake your hand 5,000 times in less then 2 minutes. hes really something else but he's still pretty darn cool.

Jodel: dis my other nigga right here and well he knows how to get crunk and im right there with him on this. but this guy is a really cool cat but he needs to run from the dogs faster. lol.

Elizabeth: Okso this is E-beth and well she is a little off the deep end because according to her im a traitor. but its all good because i enjoy her very interesting/ comical blogs alot so thanks E-beth.

Bethany: Well my bethinizzle is the shizzle. lol but what can i say about her honestly. her personality is very much out there and you gotta love her.

Steven: Um well if you know skeebs you already know that i have nothing to say really. skeebs is well skeebs. need i say more.

Elisha: Mr. Bush is well Mr. Bush and i honestly think that this guy really should be the president because how awesome would that be seriously. but there are alot of good times with this cat and thats whats really up sure there are bad but i try not to think about the bad. but the fun times are always interesting.

BITR: What Scares The Living Daylights Out Of Me.

Ok well this is a very simple thing to write on now that i have thought about it long and hard and well the thing that scares the living daylights out of me, well things but yea its both of my sisters friends really.

Because my older sister has this one friend who i absolutely despise really. she has the tendency to sleep wierdly i suppose because she sleeps with her eyes open so it always looks like she is dead, but shes only sleeping really.

The other thing that scares me is when ever my little sister has friends over they always manage to freak me out in one way or another. She has this one friend that spent the night with her at my house and she felt it was a good idea to start hitting on me. what in the world and the sad thing is its not the first one of my sisters friends to do so.

so that is what scares the living daylights out of me.

BITR: What I Hate About Jeff

Ok so i have compiled a Top 10 list of what i hate about Jeff Roberts.

10.

JEFF IS A NERD.

9.

JEFF IS WORSE THAN JUSTIN ON THE SKATEBOARD.

8.

JEFF LOOKS LIKE HE CAN BE A CHILD MOLESTER.

7.

JEFF HAS AN UGLY GOATEE.

6.

JEFF IS HORIBLE ON POWER-POINT.

5.

JEFF IS A HORIBLE PARENT FOR LETTING IAN SLEEP IN THE BACKYARD.

4.

JEFF CAN'T PLAY GUITAR HERO TO SAVE HIS LIFE.

3.

JEFF THINKS HES BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE.

2.

JEFF AGREES WITH EVERYTHING MATT SAYS AND MATT'S NOT EVEN A CHRISTIAN.

1.

JEFF LOOKS LIKE A PREGNANT ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNK MENBER.

And those are my top ten reasons why i hate jeff.

(not really)

BITR: 10 years from now.

Ok so my blog topic is a very tough one if i do say so but im gonna try to do the best i can with it.

Ok so in 10 years i see my self as an executive at HOK Sport in Memphis, Tenneesee. and a graduate of the ever famous Auburn University. While at HOK i plan on turning the sports world upside down with revoloutionary and cutting edge designs.

I plan on being married and raising 2 children and adopting one child in the future. My house i want it to be nice but not over the top though. I want my house to be big enough for me and my family.

I also plan on staying in the public eye by opperating numerous charities and working to help solve numerous issues that I consider valuable to the well being of the community as a whole and if not the city in general.

I plan to open up several animal shelters and several shelters that i would not deem to be homeless shelters but help shelters to get those that are currently displaced for whatever reason and help them to get a means of support and help them find suitable living space.

I also plan to run for public office within the city and eventually the state and make a difference in the lives of people. I hope to exercise great will and ambition to make a change and be a leader and not glorify myself with everything that i plan/hope to do but glorify GOD.

{I know that iwas supposed to go into detail alot more than this but its the best i could do}

BITR: American Pie

ok so these are the lyrics for American Pie.


{A long, long time ago...I can still rememberHow that music used to make me smile.And I knew if I had my chanceThat I could make those people danceAnd, maybe, they’d be happy for a while.But february made me shiverWith every paper I’d deliver.Bad news on the doorstep;I couldn’t take one more step.I can’t remember if I criedWhen I read about his widowed bride,But something touched me deep insideThe day the music died.So bye-bye, miss american pie.Drove my chevy to the levee,But the levee was dry.And them good old boys were drinkin’ whiskey and ryeSingin’, "this’ll be the day that I die."this’ll be the day that I die."Did you write the book of love,And do you have faith in God above,If the Bible tells you so? Do you believe in rock ’n roll,Can music save your mortal soul,And can you teach me how to dance real slow? Well, I know that you’re in love with him`cause I saw you dancin’ in the gym.You both kicked off your shoes.Man, I dig those rhythm and blues.I was a lonely teenage broncin’ buckWith a pink carnation and a pickup truck,But I knew I was out of luckThe day the music died.I started singin’,"bye-bye, miss american pie."Drove my chevy to the levee,But the levee was dry.Them good old boys were drinkin’ whiskey and ryeAnd singin’, "this’ll be the day that I die."this’ll be the day that I die."Now for ten years we’ve been on our ownAnd moss grows fat on a rollin’ stone,But that’s not how it used to be.When the jester sang for the king and queen,In a coat he borrowed from james deanAnd a voice that came from you and me,Oh, and while the king was looking down,The jester stole his thorny crown.The courtroom was adjourned;No verdict was returned.And while lennon read a book of marx,The quartet practiced in the park,And we sang dirges in the darkThe day the music died.We were singing,"bye-bye, miss american pie."Drove my chevy to the levee,But the levee was dry.Them good old boys were drinkin’ whiskey and ryeAnd singin’, "this’ll be the day that I die."this’ll be the day that I die."Helter skelter in a summer swelter.The birds flew off with a fallout shelter,Eight miles high and falling fast.It landed foul on the grass.The players tried for a forward pass,With the jester on the sidelines in a cast.Now the half-time air was sweet perfumeWhile the sergeants played a marching tune.We all got up to dance,Oh, but we never got the chance!`cause the players tried to take the field;The marching band refused to yield.Do you recall what was revealedThe day the music died? We started singing,"bye-bye, miss american pie."Drove my chevy to the levee,But the levee was dry.Them good old boys were drinkin’ whiskey and ryeAnd singin’, "this’ll be the day that I die."this’ll be the day that I die."Oh, and there we were all in one place,A generation lost in spaceWith no time left to start again.So come on: jack be nimble, jack be quick!Jack flash sat on a candlestickCause fire is the devil’s only friend.Oh, and as I watched him on the stageMy hands were clenched in fists of rage.No angel born in hellCould break that satan’s spell.And as the flames climbed high into the nightTo light the sacrificial rite,I saw satan laughing with delightThe day the music diedHe was singing,"bye-bye, miss american pie."Drove my chevy to the levee,But the levee was dry.Them good old boys were drinkin’ whiskey and ryeAnd singin’, "this’ll be the day that I die."this’ll be the day that I die."I met a girl who sang the bluesAnd I asked her for some happy news,But she just smiled and turned away.I went down to the sacred storeWhere I’d heard the music years before,But the man there said the music wouldn’t play.And in the streets: the children screamed,The lovers cried, and the poets dreamed.But not a word was spoken;The church bells all were broken.And the three men I admire most:The father, son, and the holy ghost,They caught the last train for the coastThe day the music died.And they were singing,"bye-bye, miss american pie."Drove my chevy to the levee,But the levee was dry.And them good old boys were drinkin’ whiskey and ryeSingin’, "this’ll be the day that I die."this’ll be the day that I die."They were singing,"bye-bye, miss american pie."Drove my chevy to the levee,But the levee was dry.Them good old boys were drinkin’ whiskey and ryeSingin’, "this’ll be the day that I die." }

ok so i found out that the song american pie is dedicated to three singers that were killed in a plane crash in 1959. this is a really good song and it was originally released in 1971and was rereleased in 1980. it is about how three legendary singers Buddy Holly, Ritchie Valens and The Big Bopper passed away.

It is a really good song and is probably one of my favorites of all time.

BITR: Clinton v. Obama

Ok so a while back i was given the topic of who would win a fight between Hillary Clinton and Barack Obama.

Ok so if it was a fist fight i would pick Hillary Clinton to win based on the fact that she looks like a guy and could probably beat my butt.

But if it was a dance battle i would once again pick Hillary Clinton because shes just too ghetto for Obama to handle. Obama is just too white.

Now if it was a street race i would go with neither Barack Obama Or Hillary Clinton but i would pick John McCain becasue his walker has straight up NOS in it.

But i would pick Bill to win in the freestyle rap battle.

But yes i would pick Hillary to beat Obama and thats that.

BITR: Area 51

Ok so Steven, Cody, Jaulon and I were talking tonight and we were discussing the contents of Area 51.

Ok so we decided that Area 51 does not contain any aliens or any martian space craft. It holds the key to an odd life of insane colors and a vivid imagination. I'm talking about weed babies, yes weed babies. we talked about how it is the government that does not want the american people to be able to have an interesting time and lifestyle.

We came up with the simple fact that it would be pretty interesting to see an weed baby or a mini van made outta weed. i know this sounds wierd but when all of this was being talked about. well it was really funny.

Also at area 51 they have a secret stash of ants that when they bite you, you get smaller and then they start talking to you and the next thing you know. They are talking to you and just having an all out party with you.

I know all of this may seem wierd but it was funny as crap. Jaulon and I were laying on the ground laughing. I started to cry cuz i was laughing so hard.

But yea another interesting night @ good ole' Hilldale.